I wish everyone a wonderful new year!! I haven’t even opened my blog site in almost a month now.
Thanks to everyone that’s visited my blog and sorry for not even reading any comments let alone writing replies. I dunno if it’s writers block or just lack of motivation. The latter I think.
Here’s a picture from Bangkok as I was there for a few days last month shopping!!
The new year brings many challenges. Going back to Europe will be the biggest one in the coming months for me. Almost 2 years ion Asia now and I guess I’m so used to the way of life here that I might be in for a massive culture shock back in Berlin and London.
Reasons for going back are of course to spend time with my daughter, family and very close friends. And just as important I need to earn a bundle of joyful cash so I can get back here to Cambodia and continue living my life in joy and piece:-)!!
The downside (okay, there are many to going back but the biggest one…) is I’ll be leaving my partner here. And I don’t think I’ll be coming back for at least a year. I’ve also got family matters in Bangladesh to deal with. In Europe not seeing a partner for that long is unthinkable. In many Asian countries the wife not seeing the husband for anything between 1-10 years is totally accepted as the husband goes off to various economically better off countries to earn money and send remittances to support his family.
I’m no stranger to long distance relationships but this isn’t a quick plane ride away like between countries in Europe. And of course the possibility exists that one of us will meet someone else. It’s a hard battle to beat off fear with the power of love. That love doesn’t primarily come from a partner but from our hearts. And the fear comes from past hurts and stupid thoughts in our heads that we suddenly deem as ‘reliable information’ just like Bush’s ‘weapons of mass destruction’ doctrine. The mind needs to be kept busy so it doesn’t have time to come up with stupid wasteful debilitating thoughts of all the negative possible outcomes. And I will be busy aplenty in Europe-I don’t know yet which country I’ll be living in-depends totally on where I can get a decent job.
So who knows where this relationship will go?? We both want to be together regardless of time and distance apart. That’s a start. I guess we’ll see…….!!